H-E-L-P? How to ask for… That?


So, my husband runs a small business. When I say small, I mean it cost us– {ME} more than we make. He needs a
nanny in order to process orders…. I mostly pay for said nanny. He also uses the money he makes for enjoyment for him and an occasional dinner for us. So, he’s been up in arms because he has these orders to fill. So, I asked a friend to come and watch my son this morning; my nanny was sick and honestly, I’m overdrafted- how can I pay her anyhow? Which leaves my husband with the baby for 8.5 hours. I’m a busy manager at work and worked 10 hours today. But I came home to this mess!

Okay, that might not look bad but we bathe my son in the sink. Which leaves me to do the dishes- took me a half an hour to get those done with a crying baby at my side. Bathe the boy, eat some dinner, do 3 loads of laundry, fold 2 loads of laundry, change the boy, open mail (unpaid bills), and finally sit down at 11:30 and nurse the baby to sleep and write this blog. All the while my husband is working- in the shop (attached garage of our house). I don’t mind him doing that; but, I work 3 jobs and I’m at wits end! I’m so exhausted, mentally and physically. I almost think I might lose it. All of our bills are past due, I can’t catch up and I’m really scared I won’t be able to buy food/gas this week. Needless to say, I’m overwhelmed! I can’t remember a time when times were this meek. And I feel so alone. Is this how “breadwinners” feel? I don’t know how to get the help I need from my husband or anyone else. I feel like giving up.

On top of it all, my damn cell phone charger isn’t working properly and my damn phone doesn’t hold a charge. I can’t afford another charger…. So, maybe no connection to the outside world.

Have you every asked for help? What do I do?

One thought on “H-E-L-P? How to ask for… That?

  1. Good luck mama, sending you a prayer! No advice except that God will provide. Sounds like you are working hard for your family, make sure to take care of you too!

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