Well. It has been a while since I have blogged. Sorry. Sorry I’m not sorry. Well, it’s just be a roller coaster of emotions. Some days are great and others I feel like someone is standing on top of me, choking me, stabbing me and enjoying my pain. Okay, that was really over-the-top but I have always been a little dramatic – can you tell? So, life hasn’t changed much (unfortunately). I am working more than ever – Monday through Friday my full time job, Monday and Wednesday classes from 330-930 and Saturday’s 630AM-12. Then being a mom. I know, how can I do all of this? Really, I know what you are thiking – why do you work so much? What kind of mom and wife can you be by doing all this work?
I don’t know. A shitty one I guess.
Well, at least that is what my mom would say. But, she is too nice (some days) to say it outloud.
All I can say is the income doesn’t exceed the bleeding of bills and that is why I do what I do.
But, today, I am at work (not teaching) because I am required to work a few Saturdays during tax season. Therefore, I am forfeiting MONEY to be at my full time job – essentially – for FREE. Why is it that broke people spend MORE money (in relation to their income) and work for FREE? Good question.
Mark Twain was right when he proclaimed, “The lack of money is the root of all evil.”
So – there you have it. Good Ol’ Mark was on to something all those years ago. And here I am pushing the staus quo. LEANING IN – if you will and still uncovering the root of life – money problems.
I had an epiphany the other day. The more I work, the more jobs I take, the MORE IN DEBT I GET. So, I am really thinking of pursuing a dream of mine.
A few years ago (when I say a few, really I mean 8 ish years ago) I decided to write a children’s book… and I NEVER STARTED IT. Of course. I was too busy working and finishing my masters and putting my efforts other places. But, I realized that perhaps the only way for me to get out of this tourmoil is to a) write this damn book b) become a stripper c) marry a rich man…. I hope my husband doesn’t mind. B, won’t work because I am not coordinated enough to dance in those heels – get it if you can!
So, I am writing this said book. I started it and almost finished it…. Now, my fears are I don’t know what to do with it? How do I find a publisher for a children’s book that will take me seriously? I don’t know what I am doing but I really want to make this dream come true. HELP. HELP. Helllllpppppppppp.