It’s been so long I almost forgot how to start a post. Life is busy and crazy and so damn demanding. I just want a full 24 hours to pee by myself and not respond to one email. NOT ONE.
I’m riding the waves of motherhood and a full time college teaching career coupled with a part time teaching gig at another college. I drive to 3 different campuses each week. It’s utterly insane and I love it. I can’t help to yearn for the day I’ll find my tenured track teaching position and settle down.
These past few months that I’ve been gone (from you- blog) I’ve feel these words:
Happiness, joy, laughter, sweet, caring, friendship, excitement….
But I’ve also had some really terrible situations happen that have left me feeling…
Lost, isolated, sad, uncomfortable, depressed, uncertain, out of control, fleeting, inadequate…
Is there a chance PPD can happen when your child is well into toddler years? I feel like the world is sitting on my shoulders and trying to suffocate me. 1 step forward and 5 steps back.
I mean, I’ve accomplished some really amazing things… But they’ve kind of just been an almost there success… I feel like I’m part of the Myth of Sissifus.
Wow. If I want to have a blog and followers I should probably FINISH BLOG POSTS FROM Easter!
All I can do is laugh. I wanted to just throw this one away, like, oh well [she] tried. But then I thought, nah, they can see I’m a total mess just like everyone else.
Half assing this thing called life.
Do you feel you’re half-Ing shit, too? Well, dang, you’re NOT alone.
Since it’s been SO long. Here’s a few pictures from our lives lately.
Oh. And. I’ll post a REAL blog post this week. Don’t hold your breath 😁